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hplyrikz:

I can relate to this
Apr 1, 2014 / 438,261 notes

hplyrikz:

I can relate to this

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zodiacsociety:

Capricorn in Studying.
Mar 27, 2014 / 1,921 notes

zodiacsociety:

Capricorn in Studying.

Mar 27, 2014

Encouragements of the week <3

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earthlyscum:

can someone bring capes back into fashion

we could all start wearing capes starting in march. and see where it ends up

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Nov 25, 2013
Nov 6, 2013 / 80,574 notes

overlordrae:

jaimejimmyjamesjamieson:

For the wife.

I needed kilts on my dash and did not know it.

oh… GOD….

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abigaillarson:

Celia Bowen from Erin Morgenstern’s “The Night Circus”
Oct 28, 2013 / 10,189 notes

abigaillarson:

Celia Bowen from Erin Morgenstern’s “The Night Circus”

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Oct 24, 2013 / 22,864 notes
One would think that after all these years, all these heartbreak, one would find easier to find breath again through the pain.
Oct 21, 2013 / 1 note
Oct 18, 2013 / 2 notes

Shrinking Women

Across from me at the kitchen table, my mother smiles over red wine that she drinks out of a measuring glass.
She says she doesn’t deprive herself,
but I’ve learned to find nuance in every movement of her fork.
In every crinkle in her brow as she offers me the uneaten pieces on her plate.
I’ve realized she only eats dinner when I suggest it.
I wonder what she does when I’m not there to do so.

Maybe this is why my house feels bigger each time I return; it’s proportional.
As she shrinks the space around her seems increasingly vast.
She wanes while my father waxes. His stomach has grown round with wine, late nights, oysters, poetry. A new girlfriend who was overweight as a teenager, but my dad reports that now she’s “crazy about fruit.”

It was the same with his parents;
as my grandmother became frail and angular her husband swelled to red round cheeks, rotund stomach
and I wonder if my lineage is one of women shrinking
making space for the entrance of men into their lives
not knowing how to fill it back up once they leave.

I have been taught accommodation.
My brother never thinks before he speaks.
I have been taught to filter.
"How can anyone have a relationship to food?" He asks, laughing, as I eat the black bean soup I chose for its lack of carbs.
I want to tell say: we come from difference, Jonas, 
you have been taught to grow out
I have been taught to grow in
you learned from our father how to emit, how to produce, to roll each thought off your tongue with confidence, you used to lose your voice every other week from shouting so much
I learned to absorb
I took lessons from our mother in creating space around myself
I learned to read the knots in her forehead while the guys went out for oysters
and I never meant to replicate her, but
spend enough time sitting across from someone and you pick up their habits

that’s why women in my family have been shrinking for decades.
We all learned it from each other, the way each generation taught the next how to knit
weaving silence in between the threads
which I can still feel as I walk through this ever-growing house,
skin itching,
picking up all the habits my mother has unwittingly dropped like bits of crumpled paper from her pocket on her countless trips from bedroom to kitchen to bedroom again, 
Nights I hear her creep down to eat plain yogurt in the dark, a fugitive stealing calories to which she does not feel entitled.
Deciding how many bites is too many
How much space she deserves to occupy.

Watching the struggle I either mimic or hate her,
And I don’t want to do either anymore
but the burden of this house has followed me across the country
I asked five questions in genetics class today and all of them started with the word “sorry”.
I don’t know the requirements for the sociology major because I spent the entire meeting deciding whether or not I could have another piece of pizza
a circular obsession I never wanted but

inheritance is accidental
still staring at me with wine-stained lips from across the kitchen table.

"Still now, I send letters into space.
Hoping that some mailman somewhere will track you down and recognize you from the descriptions in my poems.

That he will place the stack of them in your hands and tell you “There is a girl who still writes you. She doesn’t know how not to.”
Oct 18, 2013 / 5 notes

"Still now, I send letters into space.

Hoping that some mailman somewhere will track you down and recognize you from the descriptions in my poems.

That he will place the stack of them in your hands and tell you “There is a girl who still writes you. She doesn’t know how not to.”

Oct 4, 2013 / 1,678 notes

7mayforever:

kissing love blog ♡

Doctor… :D

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Oct 4, 2013

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